I had started dating an older guy – he was 24 – and I loved it. I went home for Christmas break for a week, and then came back to college to start a new year.
I was getting attention from some of the more attractive guys on campus. I guess I had something of an exotic look, being half-Japanese, half-Caucasian, compared to my blonde-haired, blue-eyed classmates.
When I went away to college though, things changed. Most of my friends in high school were tiny little Asian girls, so I never really got much attention from guys growing up. I’m a bigger girl…not necessarily “fat” per se, but I am 5’9 with a solid, athletic build. I’ve always felt a little insecure and awkward growing up. Getting attention from guys who I thought were extremely attractive…check.ĭon’t get me wrong, I had a boyfriend throughout most of high school, but I have never considered myself one of the hot girls. Going to a real Thanksgiving dinner in the continental U.S….check. Walking on to my university’s basketball team…check. Going to classes and making Dean’s List my first term…check. I was soaking up everything college had to offer, and enjoying every minute of it. I was a freshman in my second term of college, 18 years young and loving life.
